oh my gosh, i am totally emotional today, why is that? i have been on the verge of crying since hours ago. not even sure if it's all because of all the work that's been heaped on me within a span of several hours and the frustrations that come with them, or because i'm coming to terms with being in love with someone off-limits but am too scared to admit it. my brain is in denial and my body can't take opposing forces anymore and can no longer understand itself.