Today

Today..
i am a woman confused. confused because i don't know where i am, and i don't know where to go.
i am a woman lost. lost in my own nonexistent world, of love, of intellectual conversations, of mystical creatures who know me not as i am.
i am a woman in hiding. for i do not show who i am, only what i want people to think i am.

And today..i hate myself. for not being able to face the truth, for preferring to keep silent rather than voice out my depraved mind, for running away from the urge to unleash myself upon the world.

Today...i simply hate.